Unremembered

by Unwoman

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    Immediate download of 14 tracks in any format you'd like. Includes .pdf of physical package (that'll be available in December 2010) This remix album features songs I've previously released, dramatically reworked. You can choose to either download the album for free, or give me some of your hard-earned money. Either way, please spread the word about this music if you like it!
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1.
Don't crush her fairy's wings Hold her gently in your hand Help her to feel tall again None of this was planned She's too small for the pen Can't write her story down Too small for the pen Can't bring her mind around She's wilting in the corner No one to help her stand Help her to feel tall again None of this was planned Her silver shell is cracking Naive beyond belief She's not as lithesome as she'd like Keeps glimpses of herself brief (Thumbelina, Thumbelina-ah) No junebugs can reach her here To sweep her into an unknown land And spirit her away to a lonely bloom No, none of this was planned She can question why she was born this small But of course there is no one to answer her call
2.
I think a lot about all the things that I have broken I look around at what remains, hoping If I turn away will I be submerged in regretting Or will I succeed in forgetting For too long I've wanted a forbidden kiss to force me to decision Chaos of lust is unstoppable and I am made of pure destruction All epiphanies are false and my sweet words might never mean a thing But I vacillate between two choices and a third could break the swing I will win either way I choose But either way I also lose I am adrift, I can't decide Whose desire to satisfy: his, yours or mine Those who don't fear me want me In this city full of men Can I say no to them for you? Can I say no to you for them?
3.
Despite all my protests Its simplicity Calls me to its breast The comfort of normality What I want is to be a commodity From here it's just too easy Oh to be typical Just as selfish as To be pandered to like the middle class 'Cause there's too many stars Not enough sky Why should I even try? At the end of the day My eyes dry and red It's a simple balm To soothe my troubled head Media somewhat true I enjoy it because I'm told to Placated and satisfied By mass entertainment They grovel for me as I won't do for them again Living vicariously Through celebrity That is how we can be happy Oh to be typical Just as selfish as To be pandered to like the middle class 'Cause there's too many stars Not enough sky There's so much beauty, too few eyes What I want is to be a commodity Only then I will be free Placated and satisfied By mass entertainment They grovel for me as I won't do for them again 'Cause there's too many stars Not enough sky Why should I even try? What I want is to be a commodity Fron here it's just so easy
4.
Is she secretly on my side Does she know all the reasons I've cried And secretly still sing along The soundtrack of her life my songs (She always got the meanings wrong) She's my sororal doppelganger Following close like a phantom Loving my discards just to confuse me: Which of us holds the hand-me-downs? (Which of us wears the wedding gowns?) Now she wears my old life, the life I think she made On my competitive side she preyed Did she always picture herself in my place Now the darling's won the race (I wish that she could see my face) Does she remember the day we tried on white dresses The day she was my sister, before I was her confessor Now does she revel in victory Or is she plagued by the ghost of me? (Haunted by what she can not see)
5.
I've walked all around the city All the places you and I went This is not bittersweet It is thoroughly tainted I could try to reclaim it For me and future loves But my mechanism's broken I'll never clean enough I am a firecracker disguised as a girl I am self-hating predator Yet for every song of Trouble that I sing There are more prey waiting in the wings You know I'd choose death if it weren't so permanent I've never been good at commitment I could run away but I'd never escape My id, my need, this waste I walk all around the city To survey the damage I have done Broken hearts on every street corner And yours is the loudest one Still I'll stay here in the city If just to assert my right I won't give up these willing victims Not without a fight
6.
I learned to love from songs I know I do it wrong I fall fast and not very well Try to dissemble, but you can tell I can't play by the rules Too impatient to be pursued But you got under my skin Your skin under my nails Your smell on my hair Your marks on my arms If we can choose our bruises I've made my choice Now I sing my own song in my own voice Though my tongue may still be tied In the end I will be undenied Oh, I learned to love from songs I know I do it wrong If I could have what I wanted You would be part of it To grasp me firmly's not an option But I want you Even now I've had you, still -- I want you Tempted to give all this a name As our dance moves always one step out of frame
7.
For too long I paid lipservice to liberation Let my young self be subsumed in our relations Don't think for a moment I don't take responsibility But you have to agree it was time I set myself free Is it wrong to distill what we had for so many years Down to the worst of us both, all of our violence and tears Tell me what hurts and hate me for wanting it anyway Love has driven me from you and fear won't make me stay I have stared down the face of death Burned my idols till nothing was left If you tried to see through my eyes You would know this is how I'll survive, the only way I can survive You think I sacrificed happiness for pleasures trivial I repeat my mantra no regrets so someday it will feel real I am alone, there is no freedom from I begged borrowed and stole, escaped your rubber room Blame me for what you can You are a shell of a man Tell all my friends I've gone mad Everything I could've wanted, I had But survival isn't just for the body It's for what will be left of me All the ways you say I'm crazy They form my legacy You think I sacrificed happiness for pleasures trivial I repeat my mantra no regrets so someday it will feel real I am alone with my freedom to I lied cheated and stole to get away from you I am alone, wide skies above me This city's all mine, and no one to love me I am alone unprotected from my worst self No freedom from but I have no regrets I am alone, wide skies above, This city's all mine, and no one to love
8.
"Are you not fonder of me than of all the rest?" cried her eyes "Yes, you are dearest of all to me -- you, the silent one; if not no one, then you." But then he speaks of her -- the unknown, a false angel. The mermaid chokes in fear, but still she hopes... How can you want something more than me? I give my life for yours, sacrifice my voice Only in hope, a thousand knives each step, that I may share your soul Oh, if only I could sing, or if this heart had wings, I would be your angel. Word travels fast, soon despair comes crashing, crashing down Only blood and sisters' love can save her life now. A thousand knives. She dances into death that night. The sea so cold, black, unyielding. A promise to fall. So only murder can save her now, but what's the use Her love is gone either way, so why fight? How can you want more than me? I rewrote my future in foam for you I gave my life to see this through and am betrayed. And disintegrate. Oooh... Oh -- Why must true illusion, not love, conquer all?
9.
I wasn't looking for -- Trouble found me It rests with eyes and words, for now my treachery Does the young planet know the force with which she pulls Who can blame two bodies for obeying gravity? Yes there are things that can't be undone But neither can they be unsaid; you can't be unwanted Knowing well that this could be the crisis Despite admonishments I remain undaunted Now I'm poised to fall the final distance into your arms The path of least resistance and the most harm I always get what I ask for But never know what I want So when I asked for it Trouble found me It lives in flesh and bone, our treachery I won't ask the lioness to change her nature However merciless, however bloody This is not the first secret, it won't be the last I see all the future tears as if they've already passed As if it's already known For now, we keep it close I ask again, my friend -- Trouble find me Remind me how it feels, my treachery
10.
Do you ever wonder, wonder who Silently came, quickly left, left a flower for you? He said "be wary of symbols" and I see them so clear But I have dreams -- one of them is you -- they eclipse all my fear Can you tell me why I dream of you? Hungry and male, and her, long-lashed and beautiful-sad Was the electricity only the sparks behind my eyes In the redness of parched, scorched earth Thirsty your eyes, or my blood But its your smile in those moments that lets in hope I subsist on this, I desist as you resist But how twisted my desires grow And when will I feel your eyes, your dark eyes On my flesh, on my breast Where I fear my displayed heart lies? ...and oh, the paresthesia when I pretend you want me When my subconcious taunts me with this impossible dream....
11.
I only wanted to make something better than myself I never resisted being criticized No I listened to everything anyone has said But some things are not meant to be analyzed It's all over now I've grown so tired of listening to all the doubt The fear so consuming that I'll never get out I still have the choice To ignore that voice inside my head that says Whatever I do, it's not a success -- I've had enough of this With every glance new cracks, new flaws are exposed We all carry a thousand mistakes But you know someday this Pandora's box will be closed Until then, I'll do whatever it takes I look to the past, to the future to come Relying on daydreams that I might have won One day... I'm too soft, I'm too hard I'm too brave, I'm too scared I'm trivial, I'm serious Is anyone even hearing this? I hear the absence of your cheers Loud and clear, loud and clear...
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With a promise to set me free From the cage I'd locked myself into He appeared with many keys How could I refuse? These golden bars they hold perfection But were chosen by mistake (mistake) Comfort would be my tomb I had to run away (he led me away) Waking in the morning, my head upon his chest The paradox abundantly clear This love attacked so fierce: it will decay like all the rest There is nothing to be gained here As lust turns to need all the promise is destroyed Need turns to possession Each little victory only noise So I have returned to my cage But now I hold the keys And I will use them Anytime I please
14.
I take the dress down from the attic I slip her on and tie her lace Tonight she might be stained and battered In your dangerous embrace I am satin, fretted and frayed By life's jagged edges When I let myself out to play Despite consequences Intensity is muted by pretending It's not in reverence for your spark Just for the severance of strings That bound me, kept me from my heart Yet everything I make and do In this labyrinth of doubt Is a misguided lovesong to you Wouldn't mean anything without (oh let it out let it out!) I take the dress down from the attic I slip her on and lace her ties Tonight she might be torn and tattered Just because we are alive

credits

released November 19, 2010

Songs written, performed, and engineered by Unwoman (Erica Mulkey). Remixed by Unwoman, except tracks 13 (remixed by Deconbrio www.deconbrio.com) and 14 (remixed by Attrition attrition.co.uk)

"Thumbelina" lyrics by Elizabeth Powers, and "What Lips My Lips Have Kissed" is by Edna St Vincent Millay

Digitally mastered by Da5id Din at Corrosive Audio www.corrosive-audio.com

Cover photo by Doctor Popular, docpop.bandcamp.com

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Unwoman is a San Francisco-based cellist-singer-songwriter. Layered with skillful cello, rich vocals, and electronically arranged beats, her solo music is a futuristic homage to her classical training. Unwoman has been featured at steampunk, goth, and sci-fi-related events all over North America and has performed with Abney Park, Rasputina, Voltaire, Amanda Palmer, Stripmall Architecture... ... more

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